Bereavement

Last night, I attended a necrological service.

It was for someone I knew only fleetingly, but I felt a great loss.
I weaved through dozens of bereavement wreaths taller than I was to get to her, and when I finally saw her, she looked so peaceful.
I walked to her husband. He looked like he was on auto-pilot. He was shaking hands, receiving hugs, smiles, and words of sympathy. Then it was my turn. I didn't know what to say. He said, "Hey, you're here, thank you so much for coming." I just mumbled a, "We'll be praying for her," and awkwardly gave him a hug.

I remember when I was on that side of the fence.

You never really feel your loss until you're all alone.

You think plunging into the ocean of your daily activities will be enough to make you forget about your loss for a while, but it doesn't work.

You turn to God and to other people, and you find comfort & strength.

But your loss won't really go away.

It CAN'T go away.

Because nobody can replace anyone else. EVER.

Each person is unique, and this is true for the way that each person touches the life of someone else.

We just have to stop being selfish and accept the loss.

Yes, stop being selfish.

While I was going through the grieving experience not so long ago, I realized that people who grieve GRIEVE FOR THEMSELVES.

EVERYBODY does SOME good in their life. If you think about the one who passed away and how they lived their lives, how they shared themselves with everyone else, how they touched the lives of people around them, you'd realize that they ALL lived a FULL life.
Furthermore, they have completed their predestined assignments. They have accomplished their missions in life. They're done.
Why grieve for them? At work, during an exam, while in line at the doctor's office, do we EVER feel bad for someone who finished ahead of us?
I don't think so.

We grieve for ourselves, we who are left behind, we who find it difficult to cope with the loss, we who can't stand the pain of missing someone whom we will never see again.

But no one REALLY goes away forever. As long as their memories are kept alive in our hearts and minds, the things we learned from them preserved and upheld, the good they have done seen as inspirations to better ourselves, they are made IMMORTAL.

Let us grieve, but not for the ones who have passed on.

They are now in a much better, happier, peaceful place with Someone who loves them even more than we do.

The Beatles in Outer Space

Have you heard about this new NASA "project" to transmit a Beatles song into space?
According to the Associated Press, NASA is going to transmit the Beatles song "Across The Universe," composed by Paul McCartney & John Lennon, from its giant antenna in Madrid, Spain. NASA downloaded an MP3 of the song, the original version of which is just under 4 minutes long, and will transmit it digitally to Polaris, otherwise known as the North Star.
If some being from Polaris wanted to hear the song, it would need an antenna & a receiver to convert the transmission back to music, much like people receive satellite television. AND, Polaris would have to wait 431 YEARS before they actually receive the transmission, because Polaris is 2.5 QUADRILLION miles away.
The launching of the music into outer space celebrates the 40th Anniversary of the song, the 45th Anniversary of NASA's Deep Space Network, and the 50th Anniversary of NASA.
This idea was hatched by a Beatles historian, and after being approved by Sir Paul, Yoko Ono, and the companies who own the rights to the Beatles' music, which includes Apple, well, it's going to happen today, February 4th at 7 p.m. EST.

Reportedly, Apple happily gave its permission because it was "always looking for new markets."

ON POLARIS?!?! Come on!!

Hey, if NASA was a willing participant in all this, maybe they can send Vilma Santos' cover of "I Saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus" into outer space! Maybe to Betelgeuse or Aldebaran or some other star of note?


P.S. Don't you just love Ringo's hair?

Chipping My Tooth

I accidentally bit into something hard over lunch today and chipped my tooth. It was one of my molars.
It wasn't an unadulterated, pristine molar, but nevertheless, it had my DNA on it.
That tooth had seen better days. The reason why it's in such a fragile condition is that most of it has been rehabilitated by a root canal procedure when I was still in grade school.
Can you imagine going through a root canal at the age of 10?
Well, anyway, I wised up after that and that was the last filling I ever had.
But a while back, after almost two decades of being part of my mouth, my filling decided to just leave me. It just upped and left. Sure, there was some abuse on my part. I was chewing gum at that time--the LAST gum I'll EVER chew, I'll tell you that--then it just decided to divorce me and stick to the gum I was chewing. No final words, no goodbye letters stuck to the fridge.
Seeking much-needed solace, I went to my dentist and she told me, "If you're not in pain and your bite is the same, we don't need to do anything right now. Your tooth looks fine."
Fine?!? I think. It has a big hole where all the food I chew disappear into and I have to excavate with a soup ladle afterwards, and you tell me it looks fine?!?
But outwardly I say politely, "Is there any way we can fix it, like fill it or something?"
Well the dentist proceeds to tell me that other than the filling, a part of my tooth chipped off and since it was a molar, I have to have it capped, and in order to do that prosthetics have to be used and posts have to be installed, blah blah blah, blah blah blah (at this point i was just staring at her face mask and how it moved when she talked). Then came time for her to tell me how much it costs to cap one tooth, and well...
That was some how many years ago and, you guessed right, I just lived with what remained of my tooth after that. She is my dentist after all, and I believe her. I go to her for regular maintenance anyway, so my tooth MUST be okay.
But today, a part of my tooth decided that hey, it can't live like this, that was too hard a thing to accidentally bite into, and besides, it's had it with the soup ladles! So it decided to break off and gain it's freedom. It is now nestled in tissue paper, which I unceremoniously threw in the trash. Goodbye, disloyal tooth chip.
Now, I find myself setting up an appointment with my dentist, and knowing how prices have soared, I know I'll be forking over much more money now than I would have then.

And that's how life is.
NOTHING LASTS FOREVER. Not your filling, not your tooth, not even the prices of the caps for your tooth. Not even your dentist lasts forever.

Life is change. And change comes when you least expect it.

Lesson learned?
NEVER chew gum.

P.S. Don't believe everything you read, either.

Sentimental Value

For the past 3 weeks or so, my mom had the storage area in our house turned into a spanking new kitchen. As a result, all the stuff that was stored in that area had to be taken out.
All the things that we've collected over the past 27 years that we were living in that house, all the items that we labeled as "keepsakes" and not "junk", all the objects that we judged worthy of occupying space on our shelves and not for giving or throwing away, were all lined up to undergo a re-trial: yes, they survived the first, second, third, even fourth general cleaning sessions, but will they survive this one?
All sorts of things were on parade--3 dozen mugs; a Popeye tumbler, McDonald's plates; a Hello Kitty tray; a Humpty Dumpty Fisher Price pull-along toy; a Moulinex blender given as a gift that was still in its wrapping and still had the tag on; 8 tea sets; 3 French presses; thousands of Tupperware and other plastic containers; hundreds of Mills & Boon books; innumerable shoes and clothing; et cetera.
All sorts of things, all of which we didn't even remember we had. But at one point in our lives, we just couldn't bear to part with them, we just couldn't bear to let them go, we just couldn't bear to put them into the trash bin, or let someone else make good use of them.
No.
We'd die first before we let go of that My Melody Spoon & Fork set circa 1979.
For some, these "keepsakes" may translate to a fortune on ebay. Others may see them as signs of an underlying psychiatric disorder.
But for many, these things are souvenirs of precious memories, of a time when life was simple and the only thing complicated was trying to wake up before the school bus arrives.
Memories which we are not ready to let go of just yet.

I know I'll always have my memories. But I won't always have my Pacman water game circa 1981. So while there's space on my shelf and no harm is being done, I'd still like to keep it. And the memories that go with it: the puddles on the wooden floor, the 2-player game rules my brother and I set up even if the game is for one person only, the constant reminders from my mom to clean up the mess we made, and my dad quietly shaking his head in the background. Indeed, those were the days.

Randy Jackson Versions 1 & 2

Speaking of American Idol, my brother and I got into a discussion about one if its judges. Correct, it was about Randy Jackson, otherwise the title of this post would've been different.
ANYWAY...
We were debating about whether or not Randy Jackson is the brother of Michael Jackson. I say no way, he says way. "He's part of the Jackson 5!" he says. Even his girlfriend got in on it. They even showed me a Wikipedia article on the Jackson 5 (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Jackson_5), and well, after reading this:

Randy unofficially began performing with the Jackson 5 in 1972, playing congas. He became an official member of the group in 1975, replacing Jermaine when the Jackson 5 moved to CBS Records and officially changed their name to "The Jacksons". (He is the brother the musician and record producer Randy Jackson, who serves as a judge on the television series American Idol),

I thought I was beaten.
But I just can't be beaten by my kid brother.
No way.
So I crept out from the hole where people who were proven wrong in trivia go to and Googled it up.
Thank God for Google.
The Randy Jackson of American Idol is NOT the Randy Jackson of the Jackson 5. Apparently Wikipedia screwed it up. Or at least mushed it up. (Sorry, guys, to be so judgmental of your work. I mean it did stir up some sort of confusion. Among my brother, his girlfriend, and myself, at least.)
Randall Darius Jackson was born on June 23, 1956 in Baton Rouge, Louisiana, and is a Grammy Award-winning rock, bassist, singer, record producer, and Emmy Award-nominated television & radio personality, now best known as a judge on American Idol. This is how he USED to look like:
And after gastric bypass surgery, this is how he looks like now (although I think he gained a bit more weight in season 7):
The Randy Jackson of the Jackson 5, on the other hand, was born Steven Randall Jackson on October 29th, 1961 in Gary, Indiana. He was nicknamed "Little Randy", he was the ninth out of ten Jackson children to be born, (one was stillborn) and is the youngest son in the Jackson Family. He joined the Jackson 5 in 1972 at the age of 11. After The Jacksons split in 1990, Randy Jackson formed his own band, Randy & the Gypsys (sic), but this group lasted only 1 record, and he laid low afterwards. In early 2005, as his brother Michael was fighting a child molestation case, Randy became the manager of all of Michael Jackson's business affairs and was even appointed CEO of MJJ Productions. But after Michael's trial, Randy Jackson was no longer needed by MJJ Productions, and so goes his story.
This is how he looks like:
So now that it's clear, I hope this debate, however trivial and irrelevant to the more important concerns of our daily lives, may now be laid to rest.
Thank you, Randy Jackson. And you too, Randy Jackson.

"I Am Your Brother"

Can you believe the hype that this guy is getting?
I mean there are seemingly hundreds of versions of his song on the web now, it's crazy!
But I am SO happy for him.
After all, how many of us have the chance to actually fulfill our life-long dream?
I mean, yes, a lot of us are very happy where we are right now. I know I am. But are you doing what you really dreamed you'd be doing when you were a lot younger and less realistic?
Well if I was living my dream, then darlings, Brad Pitt would be walking on bended knees towards me right now, apologizing for the fact that he wasn't able to cook my eggs just the way I wanted them this morning. Hmmm.
*Sigh* So much for dreams...
Moving on..
The fact is that no, not all of us get to see the moments that we keep playing so many times over in our heads. But this guy, Renaldo Lapuz, got to wear his all-white pimp outfit, got to sing the song he composed on worldwide television, got to hear the words "hit record" about his song from Simon Cowell, and got to dance with Paula Abdul, Randy Jackson, and Ryan Seacrest. He even got a hug from Simon before he left.
Everybody thinks he's one great guy.
And he entertained THE WORLD.
Not bad huh?
Congratulations, Renaldo, and thank you for again reminding us that hey, dreams do come true.

Why This Title?

The first title I picked out was a loooong one, and I couldn't find an appropriate url address for it. It took me about 163 "sorry, this address is unavailable" warnings on the screen, then I became quite hungry. Then it just came to me like the craving I was suddenly having. "I'm so hungry, I'd like ANYTHING with chocolate on it please," I said to myself.
And there you have it.
Chocolate-Coated Glasses.
Incidentally, I STILL haven't eaten anything yet and I'm STILL quite hungry, but I got so excited over the fact that I FINALLY found an available url that, well, my craving would have to wait. Besides, just thinking about the loooong walk downstairs to the fridge is enough to dry up my salivation for chocolate. The Meiji. The Nestle. The Noka. The Ferrero. The Godiva. The Hawaiian Host. The Guylian. The Lindt. The Cadbury. The Ghirardelli. The Hersheys. The Van Houten. The M&Ms. The Milo.
Correct.
The Milo.
I have no patience to make it into a drink. I just spoon the powdered Milo into a mug until it is 3/4 full, then I just spoon the powdered Milo into my mouth. Mmmm.
And Milo IS Chocolate. Or at least it TASTES like chocolate.

I know what you must be thinking.
No, I did not name my blog as such because I am a chocoholic and this blog is all about chocolate. Although I LOVE chocolate--who doesn't?
And no, even if I write like this, I don't speak with an English accent. (Somehow, I imagine Roald Dahl narrating my thoughts as I write them down. Maybe even Peter O' Toole?)
No.
As is evidenced by my blathering, I am just hungry. Compounded by the fact that it's two in the morning and I have been chronically sleep-deprived for the past 10 or so years--all of that makes for one odd blog title. :)